I look for you in the clouds

I always look for signs of you Benny in the clouds, a shape of a heart, or a baby, or a baby that looks like a sonogram picture!   I miss you!  I got my period and can't really try this month since Daddy will be out of town............nothing really to look forward to now.  I am still going to try just won't use meds because we only get 3 months of insurance and we already didn't have success in October so 2 more months to go then maybe IVF ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhh