In Heaven we will Meet again

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zz0Rhk9NJ9Y this song says it all
The song Still by Gerritt Hofsink

Hospital called

The hospital called and they said my pictures were ready, I had no idea what they were talking about.  It was SUCH a great surprise that the nurse took photos of my baby and I was bawling with tears of joy for once.  They are beautiful.  I miss my son so much.

As for the TTC front I am meeting with a Dr. tomorrow to discuss IVF.  I am desperate to have a baby here on earth to hold and love and teach and watch then grow. 

I look for you in the clouds

I always look for signs of you Benny in the clouds, a shape of a heart, or a baby, or a baby that looks like a sonogram picture!   I miss you!  I got my period and can't really try this month since Daddy will be out of town............nothing really to look forward to now.  I am still going to try just won't use meds because we only get 3 months of insurance and we already didn't have success in October so 2 more months to go then maybe IVF ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhh